Some days I long for bedtime like I haven’t slept in weeks. Days like today. Today, when I cleaned up dog poop, kid poop, gave baths, and all the other daily mom-stuff and was then too pooped to sit down and eat with my family. Too tired to eat. That may be a first. Nobody tells you how hard you will work as a mom. Or maybe they do, and we are just too starry-eyed and day-dreamy to hear it.
The house is finally quiet now for the first time since early morning, and when the house gets quiet, my mind gets loud. I have been drowning out this internal noise by reading. Which was working just fine until I started reading “Interrupted” by Jen Hatmaker. Not the best choice for quieting one’s mind. Great choice if you want your whole world view and value system completely undone. But I’ll write more on that sometime when I am not soooooo tired.
I also started memorizing the Sermon on the Mount. Yes. The whole thing. That is three whole chapters (5, 6, and 7) of Matthew. (If you are interested in joining me, you can find the plan here.) Now, before you start to be impressed with my lofty goal, you should know that I am only on verse 3 of chapter 5. So far, so good. But I got to verse 3, which says “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven” and I realized I had no clue what that meant. I mean, if I am going to memorize scripture, shouldn’t I understand what it is I am memorizing, at least a little? I grew up in church, so this is a very familiar passage, but I had never really “unpacked” it to see what Jesus meant. Since I am no Greek scholar, I did what most any non-seminary, non-scholarly person would do. I Googled it. Google led me to a sermon by John Piper where he broke it down like this: